London - 3pm. Its freezing cold and pouring rain, so I leave my coat in the apartment and forget an umbrella. I drop my dog off to a friends house, she craps in her conservatory. I forget my ID pass for work, I have to get out of my car in the rain and explain to security that I am, in fact, a legitimate employee and I am honestly not just trying to get in and actually work for the good of my health. I turned my computer on at work and believe me when I say I could actually run to the location of where the website was created quicker than it would load. It took me 30mins to log in. I called our tech support who spent an hour on the phone accessing my computer and apparently "making it run quicker" (tech terms I think). I rebooted the computer, got off the phone, thanked the guy who had helped and then found out its slower than it was before. Good times.
On the more positive side...I spoke to my husband last night who was thrilled that he finally recieved mail. It has to be a record...6 care packages and 3 letters! Everyone else in his detachment called him a lucky bastard, and that made me smile ever so slightly. Dont get me wrong, not all of them were actually from me, 2 were from friends of mine and 2 were from various organisations that I had signed him up to, but I'm just SO happy he had so much to open! Certainly makes a difference from Christmas day where not a single one of them had anything to open.
Sometimes I catch myself just thinking about James....yeah, I may have dealt with assholes who didnt know how to treat me right but I really couldnt ask for anymore in James than what he gives me. He makes me laugh like no one else can, his beautiful green eyes light up when he's passionately talking about something, he's the most thoughtful man on this planet....I could go on but I'd be here all day. I may miss him more than anything in the world and I may spend my days thinking about him and how much I cant wait for the simple things like a cuddle when he gets home and for him to actually be able to look me in the eyes and tell me he loves me, but for now his calming words and sweet voice will have to do <3
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